Faith....

OK so i know that i blog and no one probably reads these but if your just know coming across this well.. I like talking bout my relationship with god! I admit that my relationship with the big man isn't the best and i know but i don't know if i really depend on my relationship or if its just when i need him i want to act like that i know everything but then i know that, that is not right and that i relay should have a good relationship with him before i start a girls small group and i felt like that was my calling but now I'm having second thought but I really feel like i can make a difference if i do this and i fell like i can grow and i think gods still with me but I'm scared because I don't think i have allot of faith to just trust in something i cant see but i want to and i think that I'm Finlay getting to the point to be able to do that but if anyone who is reading this can give me some hint to reach out or not to reach out i want other peoples option!